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Name: Emily
Country: United States
State: Minnesota
Metro: St. Paul
Birthday: 2/29/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: I enjoy lots of random things, including writing, photography, reading, artsy stuff, Grey's Anatomy, working out, sleeping...and of course, the JC Whoo!
Expertise: Procrastination definately tops the list...but I also consider myself pretty good at conversation, writing and creative stuff
Occupation: Paginator and staff writer for
Industry: Journalism
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  CurlyQ7z
MSN: em1024@hotmail.com
Member Since:
4/24/2005
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| Life is good. Still living with the 'rents, though we are going through the process of making offers on various houses. I've made a few unsuccessful ones, but it's comforting to know that every house I step into could be made my own perhaps. I guess it's kind of like dating. Every bad one you have to get through is one step closer to the right one. It's out there, I just know it. It's just a matter of going through some pretty crappy fixer uppers to get to it.
But, on the other hand, I've also been debating the house looking thing also. Jon is going through some job stuff right now, and, depending on where that leads, he may or may not find himself with a job that would require him to move at some point. We've definitely come to the stage of "I could see myself with you, I think you might be IT," and if he's going to have to move, what would that mean for me if I just bought a house. Or, if I did buy a house with the understanding that we would ultimately be together, shouldn't he have some of a say in the place I buy? It's a road we'll have to cross once we see where this job opportunity is going.
So, I guess that leads up to updating on Jon. He is well. As is the relationship. We've past the 6-month stage, which means we're getting into the "real" part of it, not the honeymooning thing anymore. But, we definitely have our moments of that also. Next month we're taking a five-day road trip to Michigan so I can meet his family ('rents, bro, sis, grandma), and I couldn't be more excited! I can't wait to meet them, and I can't wait for them to meet me. I mean, I'm nervous too. But more excited. In July/August I'm also going down to Miami with him (and his friend and his wife) for his class reunion. Yay! I'm so in love, and I love it.
Isn't it funny where you find yourself sometimes, looking back at the same time the previous year? Hmmm...last year, this time, I had just started dating Kellen. Wow, had I fallen hard. But, then I look at all the crap I've gone through in the past year (regarding that and other things) and where he's at now (or where I hear he's at) and it's hard to believe where we both came out. I think that we're both in better places. I'm with a man I truly adore, and as far as I'm aware, he's with a woman he loves and he's gonna be a dad. God definitely works wonders on icky situations.
I'm also working on getting back in shape. Well, I don't think I've ever been in shape, but I'm working on getting closer to that. And, for once, I'm really feeling like I can succeed. I'm eating healthy, drinking lots of water and going to the gym at least four times a week, if not more. I'm sick of feeling fat and gross. It's such a hard thing to set your mind to and stick with it. Dieting and exercising can be dang depressing, but I've decided I'm going to press on and get what I want, which is to not cringe at myself when I look in the mirror.
This is a very, very ungracefully written entry. But, I was in need of something to pass the time and thought I would give a bit of an update. | | |
| Falling in love and loving it. Jon and I are definitely at the stage where it's not just getting to know each other anymore. It's realizing what kind of future you may see with that person down the road. Am I in love yet? No...but just this weekend I made the realization that I'm on the way there...and I'm getting the sneaking suspicion that he is too.
Keeping it on the DL. Don't want to freak him out.
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| It seems that my entries have become few and far between. But, even still, I think it my duty to update anyone who still even reads this on the crazy activities of my life.
I've been dating a guy named Jon for about three weeks here and am having a marvelous time. We have highly compatible senses of humor and get along fantastic. We have the same values and many of the same views on life...I don't know... we're just really having a good time hanging out and getting to know each other. Oh, and the other nice thing...he lives only 20 minutes away...which, I must admit, is a marvelous change in pace to the last couple guys I have dated. He is just amazing though, and I can't wait, every day, to learn more about him and get to spend more time with him. I haven't laughed as much as I do around him since my days back on sixth floor.
With me being over at his place late on occasion, the living arrangement with the parents has become exceedingly difficult. It's hard for them not to want to stick their nose in kind of everything when I'm there. So, that being said, I'm in the most immediate process of finding a cost-effective and favorable living condition. Anyone know any marvelous people wanting a roommate? Haha. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents, but I need to feel more independent and I need to give them the chance to let go a little bit.
I've been recently struggling with how much I let people around me affect who I am as a person, especially when there are some people around me that I will do anything not to be like. But, it's hard to avoid when you're with them all the time. I guess becoming aware of the risk is key. I'm just keeping this in mind as a go day to day.
Seriously, nothing else is too new or exciting. Halloween was fab (dressed up as Lara Croft), and the Chapeau's threw a marvelous party. Going to Chicago next weekend to see Becca for the first time in over a year, and I don't remember the last time I was so excited to do something. It's gonna be so, so great.
So, I'll sign off for now. Hope the anticipation of my post was worth what I just wrote 
Party on, Wayne.
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| If you don't at least have hope, what have you got?
Party on, Wayne. | | |
| Sometimes, maintaining hope is exhausting.
Hope that my life hasn't reached it's most exciting days. Hope that one day I'll find something that drives and excites me and makes it so that I can't wait to wake up in the morning to start another day. Hope that I'm not going to be alone the rest of my life.
Hope there is at least one man who will come into my life and, instead of following the well-traveled trail of making sure I never trust men ever again, actually follows through with his promises never to hurt me, a man that reinstills just a little bit of faith in the male sex. Hope that I will be captivating to someone...someone who will love my flaws and my beauties...the fact that I talk to much and too fast when I'm nervous, but will always listen when time calls for it... Hope that someday I will know, without a doubt, that I don't have to worry about him leaving me because he loves me THAT much, and knowing he stays not because he's obligated to, but because he wants to.
Hope that I'm turning into the woman I want to be. Hope that I'm turning into the woman my parents want me to be.
Hope that I'm a good friend. Hope that I'm a good person.
Hope for a more optimistic tomorrow. Hope for the world.
Dang those shows and books that make you think about life.  | | |
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